Ok so I know I left you all hanging on the edge of your seats when after my miscarriage last October I told you hubs and I would be waiting to make any further baby decisions until January. Well kids, it’s January! A decision has been reached and if there isn’t another baby growing in my tummy by the end of the year then we’re going to have an only child. It is what works best for us, I don’t want the kids to be more than 3 years a part and I don’t want it to be an endless possibility. So you can all stop worrying that I will continue my meltdown and refuse to ever try again. I’m feeling a lot better these days. I still have my off days when I’m just overwhelmed with sadness and missing Baby To Be Named Later, but over all I am better. I honestly don’t think I’ll ever be over it. It just hit me hard, it truly broke my heart to lose the baby. But I am committed to staying focused on all the things I do have. I do have a fantastic baby boy and a wonderful husband, and lets not forget my best friend, my mommy! I’m a very lucky women and I won’t let myself forget it, but I also have allowed myself to mourn.
I feel so much better now, that I’m not holding out on you 
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I’m so excited to hear this!!! Congratulations on making a decision I can’t imagine how hard that must have been. I’m so proud of how far you’ve come and we’re always here to listen!
Thanks Tara, you ladies have been a HUGE part of me getting better. I appreciate you all so much and am so glad I’ve connected with you guys!
Stacey, I’m so glad to hear this. You have been so strong, and this isn’t exactly an easy decision to make. It is a similar decision that my cousin and his wife made – and they just welcomed their second daughter in the world. I hope that you will be as lucky.
Thanks Amanda, congrats to your cousin, I hope we are too
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Very exciting! I’m glad you’re at a place where you can make this decision. I hope it all works out for you!
Thanks, it feels good to be at this place finally. I think a part of me needed us to have a plan.
I totally understand that – I always feels better with a plan.
You are a very smart and level-headed woman Stacey. I am happy that you made this decision because you are a fantastic mum and we need more people in this world who were brought up by mums like you! I will be thinking of you and Charles and sending positive energy your way!!
Ahh thanks Rachie!
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